Tuesday, July 8, 2008

But why....?

Why is it some times that we have this weird feeling inside us... so much weird that it's almost about to choke us? Your heart beats fast, you feel sick, you feel as if something very unfortunate will happen, something so bad that you wouldn't stand it... but nothing happens...but that sick feeling will be all over... all over you... as if something worse is crawling on your very skin and you can do nothing but only look at it helplessly...you can't catch it...you can't squash it...you can't brush it off...it stays there...there on your skin and slowly creeps into your skin as you look on...into your blood...into your nerves... into your bone...You feel as if you are hit by a incurable disease, with no fault of yours and that you are destined to just waste away in front of the eyes of people who care for you, who want to help you...You feel as if you are stuck in a quagmire and that you are sinking in...and in ...and in....

Monday, July 7, 2008

Some vague thoughts...

Gray overcast....light drizzle... soft breeze... soul stirring music and some one special by my side... Wow that makes my perfect moment... And right now it's a perfect moment... but handicapped... why? Gray overcast... light drizzle ... soft breeze... soul stirring music... everything's there...but with nobody special by my side... Yet i'm not disappointed... As I love to wait for the perfect moment... There's always a kick in the anticipation... in the pain that you have to undergo to get that perfect moment... And may be that is why it seems so sweet so gratifying to achieve something after a long wait... My wait too have been long... spanning over years, but I dont care... as I know every minute that goes by is only taking me nearer towards my moment... So let me wait...wait...w a i t...